I got up from the bench. It was too cold to sit outside. I wanted to be warm again. Lit from below, empty branches scratched at the sky.
I didn't think it had to be, I said.
You know, you're saying that, but you obviously weren't happy that I loved someone else. It's okay, it doesn't make a bad person.
But I loved someone else.
Yeah, I know, he said. But you didn't want me to.
I wouldn't have minded, if ...
I tried to think of a way to finish this sentence without saying: if I were different, if I were the person I wanted to be. Instead I just let it fall off into silence. I was so cold.