They’d join our table, hoisting one butt cheek onto the stool as if unsure whether to stay or go and chuck a desultory chip or two onto their box, emitting a sigh of defeat.
I began to focus small on the green baize in front of my nose, drifting towards a meditative space as I played like an automaton, on endless repeat, my emotions effectively cauterised.
I remember the frisson of excitement I’d felt at her approach, at having been singled out, and the justification that swiftly followed. I told myself that it would be an adventure: something I could write about as I embarked on a career in journalism.
I had spent the years before in a generalised torpor. At home, this had been understood and made legible as a depression
Their eyes had become so accustomed to gazing at the sea through the coruscation of air and water that they picked up small boats that were, for some reason, too small for radar
