Young people, listen closely: there’s nothing good about alcohol, cigarettes, prostitutes, pornography or drugs. They destroy you, body and mind. Don’t think for a second they could be tools of liberation: on the contrary, they lead to dependency and alienation, they ruin you and, in the end, they kill you. My only tool of liberation was that loving gaze God sent me in the eyes of a woman; the rest of the story was nothing but one long mismatching of my means and my ends: ignorance; solitude; lack of support and affection; an enormous world which that gaze released within me and which I didn’t know how to control. I had to destroy myself because I didn’t know about the tools I could use to build myself up. It’s not a fail-safe method. Don’t try to follow in my footsteps. Besides, it was only one liberation, nothing definitive.