It wasn't until then that I realized I suffer from a disease. I get this obsession, and I get this feeling that I just want more. Its like I have this little guy in my head who tells me l don't deserve this good life. "You know what you want to do, go back and do what you do, 'cause that's what you do good, and all of this is for somebody else. It looks good on them, but not on you." That's what my head tells me.