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I want to demonstrate it for you more clearly. We’re sitting in the restaurant, and I have an air of sad expectation. I revert to silence, which is the most basic form of agreement, of disallowing any distance to emerge between the two of us. Oliver tells me he’s thinking about quitting a group he’…

[...] Two nights after the dream of my grandmother, I dreamt (I was in a spate of dreaming) I was hiking with my parents in a valley. It was so dark that everything looked gray, with trees as darker shapes and rocks as light shapes. Ahead of us, suddenly, we saw a pair of glowing red eyes amid the …

It had been two, maybe three months since we had last spoken. There had been no catastrophic event, no falling out. Everett Everett had started seeing someone and our friendship waned. I already miss you, I wrote to Everett Everett. Our email archive ends there. He never replied. I was wounded but …

[...] I was a teenager and so already understood myself to be something of a creature unlike others, a being of anomalous or uncertain nature, a half-formed human trying to find a way to exist among all the fully formed humans I was certain everyone else already was. I wanted to believe that this s…

Now that I’m older, I suspect my mother used marriage as a way to reinvent herself. As if she could slough off the past and emerge whole and unmarked, ready to slip into the circumstances of someone else’s life. Her own circumstances, the ones she was born into, were poverty, eight younger siblings…