[...] After a couple of months, he asked her, why him? [...] What she said was sweet, but Nate was still partly unsatisfied. IT felt exogenous to him, to the real him.
At the park, he had thought Hannah was unreasonable when she accused him of not trying, but now he wondered if he had, at some point, stacked the deck against her - decided he didn't want her and then set things up so she'd justify his slackening interest. Because he knew - of course he knew, he wa…
her multisyllabic mewing sounds were stagy, meretricious
i thought it meant fake/lying. close enough