She apologized. She said she didn’t realize that he was out. She felt sad to think of him with someone else. Part of her still couldn’t bear that her marriage hadn’t worked out. Part of her still couldn’t bear that she no longer had Toby. Yes, she liked her freedom. Yes, divorce was the right move. She always thought divorce would come from hate, but her anger was never based in hate. It was based in disappointment that someone she loved misunderstood her so deeply. They were so different, but they had grown up together. He was her first great love.