The church as well as man's pride keeps the population explosion going, only the very richest are entitled to adequate medical treatment, and the very attitude of so-called big business is to turn its head away from any disastrous truth that does not drastically affect us today. For them, tomorrow does not count, but here is the catch. Tomorrow is here. Tomorrow is today, for even if we aboutfaced, we are already too late. I'll admit these facts are accessible to one who cares, and I am one of those. That is the very reason I can't stand to sit by and watch all this go on. It is intolerable to me, and there is nothing I can do about it. I have tried to slant my articles to point to the truth, but they were censored. I had even thought of starting my own paper, but I could not get circulation.

The entire object of my bringing these things up was to see if there was one ray of hope, a chink in my argument that would lead me to change my mind. I find none, as I am sure the reader does not. I certainly felt like the man who plays Russian roulette, but I had no chance, so to speak. In this little gun, there was only one chamber. I was sweating profusely. The final moment is not funny. A sunbeam from the window had touched my table. I raised the gun up to my temple. I'd memorized the very spot.