The lady played in the same manner as before, softly and
solemnly, and while she played the shadows deepened in the
room. The autumn twilight gathered in, and from her place
Isabel could see the rain, which had now begun in earnest,
washing the cold-looking lawn and the wind shaking the great
trees. At last, when the music had ceased, her companion got
up and, coming nearer with a smile, before Isabel had time to
thank her again, said: ‘I’m very glad you’ve come back; I’ve
heard a great deal about you.’
pretty
‘Well,’ the old man observed with wandering irrelevance, ‘it can’t be said that my death will make much difference in your mother’s life.’
‘It will probably make more than you think.’
‘Well, she’ll have more money,’ said Mr Touchett. ‘I’ve left her a good wife’s portion, just as if she had been a good wife.’
‘She has been one, daddy, according to her own theory. She has never troubled you.’
‘Ah, some troubles are pleasant,’ Mr Touchett murmured. “Those you’ve given me for instance. But your mother has been less — less — what shall I call it? less out of the way since I’ve been ill. I presume she knows I’ve noticed it.’
‘I shall certainly tell her so; I’m so glad you mention it.’
‘It won’t make any difference to her; she doesn’t do it to please me. She does it to please — to please —’ And he lay a while trying to think why she did it. ‘She does it because it suits her. But that’s not what I want to talk about,’ he added. ‘It’s about you. You'll be very well off.'
brutal
‘I hope not indeed,’ said Isabel, who added something about his being the kindest creature living. She remembered, however, that on her first asking him about Madame Merle he had answered her in a manner which this lady might have thought injurious without being explicit. There was something between them, Isabel said to herself, but she said nothing more than this. If it were something of importance it should inspire respect; if it were not it was not worth her curiosity. With all her love of knowledge she had a natural shrinking from raising curtains and looking into unlighted corners. The love of knowledge coexisted in her mind with the finest capacity for ignorance.
But Madame Merle sometimes said things that startled her, made her raise her clear eyebrows at the time and think of the words afterwards. ‘I'd give a great deal to be your age again,’ she broke out once with a bitterness which, though diluted in her customary amplitude of ease, was imperfectly disguised by it. ‘If I could only begin again — if I could have my life before me!’
‘Your life’s before you yet,’ Isabel answered gently, for she was vaguely awe-struck.
“No; the best part’s gone, and gone for nothing.’
‘Surely not for nothing,’ said Isabel.
“Why not — what have I got? Neither husband, nor child, nor fortune, nor position, nor the traces of a beauty that I never had.’
“You have many friends, dear lady.’
‘I’m not so sure!’ cried Madame Merle.
“Ah, you’re wrong. You have memories, graces, talents —’
But Madame Merle interrupted her. ‘What have my talents brought me? Nothing but the need of using them still, to get through the hours, the years, to cheat myself with some pretence of movement, of unconsciousness. As for my graces and memories the less said about them the better. You’ll be my friend till you find a better use for your friendship.’
“What has he? An ugly brick house in Fortieth Street? Don’t tell me that; I refuse to recognise that as an ideal.’
‘I don’t care anything about his house,’ said Isabel.
“That’s very crude of you. When you’ve lived as long as I you'll see that every human being has his shell and that you must take the shell into account. By the shell I mean the whole envelope of circumstances. There’s no such thing as an isolated man or woman; we’re each of us made up of some cluster of appurtenances. What shall we call our “self?? Where does it begin? where does it end? It overflows into everything that belongs to us — and then it flows back again. I know a large part of myself is in the clothes I choose to wear. I’ve a great respect for things! One’s self — for other people — is one’s expression of one’s self; and one’s house, one’s furniture, one’s garments, the books one reads, the company one keeps — these things are all expressive.’
these things aren't all the same tho!
“You’ve plenty of time,’ she had said to Isabel in return for
the mutilated confidences which our young woman made her
and which didn’t pretend to be perfect, though we have seen
that at moments the girl had compunctions at having said so
much. ‘I’m glad you’ve done nothing yet — that you have it
still to do. It’s a very good thing for a girl to have refused a few
good offers — so long of course as they are not the best she’s
likely to have. Pardon me if my tone seems horribly corrupt;
one must take the worldly view sometimes. Only don’t keep
on refusing for the sake of refusing. It’s a pleasant exercise of
power; but accepting’s after all an exercise of power as well.
There’s always the danger of refusing once too often. It
was not the one I fell into — I didn’t refuse often enough.
You’re an exquisite creature and I should like to see you
married to a prime minister. But speaking strictly, you
know, you’re not what is technically called a parti. You’re
extremely good-looking and extremely clever; in yourself
you’re quite exceptional. You appear to have the vaguest
ideas about your earthly possessions; but from what I can
make out you’re not embarrassed with an income. I wish you
had a little money.’
By way of answer Isabel kissed her, and, though some
women kiss with facility, there are kisses and kisses, and this
embrace was satisfactory to Madame Merle. Our young lady,
after this, was much alone; she saw her aunt and cousin only
at meals, and discovered that of the hours during which Mrs
Touchett was invisible only a minor portion was now devoted
to nursing her husband. She spent the rest in her own apart-
ments, to which access was not allowed even to her niece,
apparently occupied there with mysterious and inscrutable
exercises. At table she was grave and silent; but her solemnity
was not an attitude — Isabel could see it was a conviction. She
wondered if her aunt repented of having taken her own
way so much; but there was no visible evidence of this — no
tears, no sighs, no exaggeration of a zeal always to its own
sense adequate. Mrs Touchett seemed simply to feel the
need of thinking things over and summing them up; she had
a little moral account-book — with columns unerringly ruled
and a sharp steel clasp — which she kept with exemplary neat-
ness. Uttered reflection had with her ever, at any rate, a prac-
tical ring. ‘If I had foreseen this I’'d not have proposed your
coming abroad now,’ she said to Isabel after Madame Merle
had left the house. ‘I’d have waited and sent for you next
year.’
lmao
‘I know what you’re going to say — he was a very good man. But I know it better than any one, because I gave him more chance to show it. In that I think I was a good wife.’ Mrs Touchett added that at the end her husband apparently recognised the fact. ‘He has treated me most liberally,’ she said; ‘I won’t say more liberally than I expected, because I didn’t expect. You know that as a general thing I don’t expect. But he chose, I presume, to recognise the fact that though I lived much abroad and mingled — you may say freely — in foreign life, I never exhibited the smallest preference for any one else.’
‘For any one but yourself,” Madame Merle mentally observed; but the reflexion was perfectly inaudible.
‘I never sacrificed my husband to another,’ Mrs Touchett continued with her stout curtness.
‘Oh, no,’ thought Madame Merle, ‘you never did anything for another!’
oof
[...] She was always at home on Sunday afternoons and surrounded by sympathetic compatriots, usually the same. In fact she was at home at all times, and reproduced with wondrous truth in her well-cushioned little corner of the brilliant city, the domestic tone of her native Baltimore. This reduced Mr Luce, her worthy husband, a tall, lean, grizzled well-brushed gentleman who wore a gold eyeglass and carried his hat a little too much on the back of his head, to mere platonic praise of the ‘distractions’ of Paris — they were his great word — since you would never have guessed from what cares he escaped to them. One of them was that he went every day to the American banker’s, where he found a post-office that was almost as sociable and colloquial an institution as in an American country town. He passed an hour (in fine weather) in a chair in the Champs Elysées, and he dined uncommonly well at his own table, seated above a waxed floor which it was Mrs Luce’s happiness to believe had a finer polish than any other in the French capital. Occasionally he dined with a friend or two at the Café Anglais, where his talent for ordering a dinner was a source of felicity to his companions and an object of admiration even to the head-waiter of the establishment. These were his only known pastimes, but they had beguiled his hours for upwards of half a century, and they doubtless justified his frequent declaration that there was no place like Paris. In no other place, on these terms, could Mr Luce flatter himself that he was enjoying life. There was nothing like Paris, but it must be confessed that Mr Luce thought less highly of this scene of his dissipations than in earlier days. In the list of his resources his political reflections should not be omitted, for they were doubtless the animating principle of many hours that superficially seemed vacant. Like many of his fellow colonists Mr Luce was a high — or rather a deep — conservative, and gave no countenance to the government lately established in France. He had no faith in its duration and would assure you from year to year that its end was close at hand. “They want to be kept down, sir, to be kept down; nothing but the strong hand - the iron heel — will do for them,’ he would frequently say of the French people; and his ideal of a fine showy clever rule was that of the superseded Empire. ‘Paris is much less attractive than in the days of the Emperor; he knew how to make a city pleasant,’ Mr Luce had often remarked to Mrs Touchett, who was quite of his own way of thinking and wished to know what one had crossed that odious Atlantic for but to get away from republics.
‘Why, madam, sitting in the Champs Elysées, opposite to the Palace of Industry, I’ve seen the court-carriages from the Tuileries pass up and down as many as seven times a day. I remember one occasion when they went as high as nine. What do you see now? It’s no use talking, the style’s all gone. Napoleon knew what the French people want, and there’ll be a dark cloud over Paris, our Paris, till they get the Empire back again.'
oh my god
‘I hope it won’t ruin you; but it will certainly confirm your dangerous tendencies.’
‘Do you mean the love of luxury — of extravagance?’
‘No, no,’ said Henrietta; ‘I mean your exposure on the moral side. I approve of luxury; I think we ought to be as elegant as possible. Look at the luxury of our western cities; I’ve seen nothing over here to compare with it. I hope you’ll never become grossly sensual; but I’m not afraid of that. The peril for you is that you live too much in the world of your own dreams. You’re not enough in contact with reality — with the toiling, striving, suffering, I may even say sinning, world that surrounds you. You’re too fastidious; you’ve too many graceful illusions. Your newly-acquired thousands will shut you up more and more to the society of a few selfish and heartless people who will be interested in keeping them up.’